Spar† e Grea†

2006-07-29T11:03:00.000+08:00

i hate you.

hate is such a STRONG word.

if your planning to do something right..

your doing it TOTALLY wrong..

im pale..

because..

i didnt eat much yesterday..

i had no mood to eat..

you should know why..

sometimes i feel like hitting something..

if you are gonna do what you did yesterday again..

im not going out wif you anymore..

again..

i hate you..

someone..told me..she wanted..it..to be..the way..it was before..im trying..but..she..aint talking..what am i to do..dots..

i feel sick..real sick.. in the stomach..i dont know why..maybe..its bcoz i didnt eat yesterday..maybe..its something else..yesterday. went to watch the lake house with some friends..its a very meaningful movie..touches the heart..my heart cried..but i told myself not to tear..that was why i was silent after the movie..if i talk abt it..i would definitely cry..im sad..real sad..im quiet not because i want to..i had no dad in my most important growing years..from primary three till secondary four..i cant talk to my mum about girls..its too..paiseh..i would rather talk to another guy..its easier to communicate..without my dad, i feel lost about many stuff..i dont want to share how i feel with others anymore because..i dont want to be betrayed anymore..two bad experiences is more then enough..i miss my dad..dont really know how he was. all i know is that he was in the air force..really cool..i feel like vommiting..dont know why..

2006-07-23T12:40:00.000+08:00

i dont know my purpose in life..do you? recently..i've watched an episode of MNIE..My Name Is Earl..i like that show..alot..its meaningful you know? and teaches you stuff about life..kharma or smth..the episode was abt a suicidal guy who had no purpose in life..he kept on trying to kill himself but earl and randy kept on stopping him..earl crossed him off his list but the guy still wanted to commit suicide..so earl decided to help him..coz it was the right thing to do..he tried to help him find his purpose in life..in the end, the guy found it himself..he found no reason to kill himself bcoz earl and randy were his frens..frens are the most powerful allies and worst enemies..they cause worse pain than the pain from girls..haha..thats y i dont like to bang seh..and or do anything that involves breaking friendships..i enjoy being around friends..its just plain fun..especially my moronic friends..wifout me, it would b so boring...without them, life would suck..although we are not perfOct..its fun..xDD

2006-07-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

haha..now i know why i love being a moron..no it aint coz its fun to irritate my frens..maybe alittle..but its becoz it brings joy to the whole world! dontcha agree? its the people who act dumb who makes the world a happier place..haha..i thank the dude up there for making all the things that happened in my life as its how he moulded me..into who i am right now..some moron who loves being a moron..xD yo yo yo wassup dawgs! THE FieRceDawG is in Da House! much loves for being a moron..xD the joys of being a moron!

no chemistry? how about biology or physics? jkjk..xD helloooooooo when did i say commitment -_- haha i still got many stuff i wanna do..like dying my hair blue! and many other stuff..you know..warcraft stuff..Clan finC T-shirts?! LOL maybe in the future..when i become more siao siao about my clan..right now gotta focus on 'O' levels..like 4E2's moto..do it once do it right..lol xD you misunderstood me..haha..im jian ming and you have just been jianified..

2006-07-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

hi..im jer..and you have just been jianified..xDD

kinda bored now..for some weird reason, dota aint helping..after playing the game, i still feel the same as i did before even if its a good game..total ownage and all..it only happened when i changed to jerome..now, fuck jerome..id rather be jer..the moronic jer..my friends, jer is back..i think..prepare for total embarrasment..xD maybe not the OLD jer, but the new and improved 110% more insane jer..

aiyoh..sad..my ah gong keep on getting hospitalised..zzz..but he still like to go out..go oso dunno where..go town area walk walk i guess..my ah gong, cool dude..but sometimes scary especially when he is angry..caring though..he make those tonic stuff..you know..those grandparents stuff to cool down the body and stuff..herbal stuff..

something is missing in my life..haha..but for now..screw that..im so jealous of the people..who have dads..my life would be soooooooooooo much better if i had a dad..not that im complaining about my life now..quite good..got computer, xbox , ps2 , miko..haha considered good la..for single parent family..my "dad" left when i was like in primary skool? dont know why..and my grandparents on his side..simply disappeared..i think he went to malaysia..to "hide" or something..well..i think he is kinda cool..you know being in the airforce and all..so cool..im soooo sad..zzz..i miss having a dad..life sucks when your me..but well im not the worse..i have a fren who's dad left him too..and to make things worse..his family bullies him..sad case..but well i think he's kinda cool..but well a little misguided at times..but on the overall he's still my fren..though we had some rough patches in the past..miss going out wif him and the group..had sooo much fun..i remember eating egg at night 9+ and buying marshmellows and candy for the bus ride home..happy days..xD

2006-07-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

o.o happy days? lol im trying to study..but i cant..i need my music..the only way i can get my music is by turning on the computer..but when the computer is on..i cant concentrate..my mp3? its lost..somewhere in singapore..dont know where..sad lol..no mp3 = no music = no study..T.T looks like i cant study..zzz..lol..i tink that the thing ah wee is talking abt is control..i can do that..but i need my music to study -_-..if not i cant study..lol..its not an excuse..music affects your mood man..lol..for me music = study..or play..lol..

for some reason, i just dont care anymore..i still like you..yes i do..but i know whats gonna happen..i wont b staying for it to happen..its puzzling..why girls like to chase after dudes that well look good and all and stuff..and not those who care for them..i want someone who likes me for me? lol..im jer man..moronicism at its best..im just waiting for the correct person to pop up in my life..right now..live life as the warcraft addict jer.. life rocks when your nvr bored..xDD

2006-07-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

Artist: Eamon
Album: I Don't Want You Back
Song: All Over Love

Hard to believe it, its kinda amazing, but its true, now that I needed
Someone so special, here comes you.
So how am I crazy, to say that I'm dreamin over you
Someone so special, how could you say this all so cruel.

So when your sayin that you need love
I look at you, and kinda smile
It's very hard just to convince baby, so maybe this will take awhile.

Cause all that I wish for, is just to be with you baby
With alittle love and squeezin and hold you close, girl its drivin me crazy

All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love

Now that we started, lets make a relationship at last
Getting to know you, with nothin to owe you so I ask
Lets keep this real simple, we know that material things won't last
Show me you love me, if anythings different, then I'll pass

So when your sayin that you need love
I look at you, and kinda smile
It's very hard to just to convince you baby, so maybe this will take awhile

Cause all that I wish for, is just to be with you baby
With alittle love and squeezin and hold you close, girl its drivin me crazy

All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love

Cause all that I wish for, is just to be with you baby
With alittle love and squeezin and hold you close, girl its drivin me crazy

All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love (all over love)
All over love

Cause all that I wish for, is just to be with you baby
With alittle love and squeezin and hold you close, girl its drivin me crazy

All over love
All over love
All over love
All over love

lol..much love for dis song man..dont know why..dont know how..earlier on i suddenly remembered a girl i met online warcraft..her nick was chaotic_dreamz..haha lol used to disturb her LOTS..well i was bored..dont know y she doesnt come online msn or wc anymore..i miss her..haha shes very preeteeeh but shes from thailand..lol got my first eamon song called "fuck it" from her but suddenly i felt like downloading the rest of the album..lol dont know why..den i stumbled onto this song..haha and one more.."How Could You Bring Him Home" both nice..but well i liked this more so i decided to put it here lor lol

jerwasnthere

2006-07-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

friends..yea..they are good..friends are there when you need them most..well..good ones are..sometimes..its nice to have someone there listening to you say rubbish..its fun..im moronic..but who cares? im jer..im unique..we all are..my group of frens..the moronic 8 lol..well they are not the really moronic ones just me..lol..my influence..xDD it all started bcoz of me..2 words..wheres..reed.. LOL haha ok nth much happened recently..well stuff that i want to type here..at least lol..yesterday cousins 21st bdae..lol cool cool but kinda boring though lol..food rocked though..my aunties catering mah..wadchew expect? my fav xDD western food! loool ate alot lol 2 plates FULL of food but only 1 round T.T lol was lazy to take 2nd round lol..just now watcheded the world cup 3rd and 4th placing lol..germany won 3-1 against portugal lol..portugal was doing quite well in starting but in the end germany won..i have no idea why coz i fell asleep halfway lol..woke up to catch a glimpse of wat happened in the end though..like magic! lol

jerwasnthere

2006-07-05T19:17:00.000+08:00

i noe that im already a very lucky person, i have food, shelter and lots of love in my life..there are many poor people in the world who have little to eat, have no proper housing or are orphans..their life is very sad and if i were them i would not be able to live..but well im lucky as i have a loving family, my only parent..my mum..and my only..sibling my sister..though my family is quite small, im content..we all are very lucky..at least we have parents..who care and shelter us..if we didnt, we wouldnt be here on this earth..id like to thank the dude up there which most of us believe to be god..to tell the truth, i believe that there IS a dude up there..he is watching our everymove and is betting wif the devil that we will do more rights than wrongs..i personally am doing some rights and some wrongs..well nobody is perfect..clpj your dad in china..hope he is alright..well at least you have a dad..he oso kinda cool looking..haha..but mine well left my family when i was like primary school? i took the blow..yes..maybe thats why im happy-go-lucky..and kinda sentimental..im one of those guys that well am touched by those touching moments in movies and other stuff..well basically, my whole life after primary school , ive nvr lived wif a guy..noe wat i mean? all my tennants were female and my dog is too..lol kinda funny..sometimes, when im with you, i keep quiet..why? trying to enjoy the moment you know..the simplest of things can make people happy..haha..sometimes i really wish that i have a real dad..that cares..clpj..you are so lucky..ur family seems so..warm..when working better look after your mum and dad..

to tell you the truth..i dont care about the 'O' levels..doesnt sound all that important to me..its just an exam..a test..like all others? but well you say its important so well i listen..ive said my piece..i think..whats left is yours..

2006-07-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

i know..im supposed to be happy-go-lucky but..screw that man..the skin only hides whats really inside..i seem happy-go-lucky and all but well..the truth is that im all fucked up inside..dont know why or how but i feel so damn bloody helpless..it sucks you know..when you dont know how other people feel..i know alot of ppl know that i like you..clpj..well actually i didnt like you till after i er spent the memoriable 3 months sitting next to you..those days, they rocked, but well the past is for us to remember and smile..the truth is that, im freaking jealous of all the other ppl, that well are in your life..but i cant do anything you know? cos its your life..and im only a part of it..like how you are a part of my life..your probably the first girl that i ever loved chatting with..but im shy la..got ppl i paiseh..i guess that well theres some other lucky dude out there..who you like..well he better treat you right..or he's gonna fucking piss me off..and probably get whacked..if i find him..that is..i just want you to be happy and if you tell me not to whack him..i wont..and if you dont want me in your life anymore , i'll just walk away..

2006-07-03T15:51:00.000+08:00

wooo first week of school..as usual..i never did my holiday homework..but who cares..lol..its life..since primary school leh..habits arent easy to change..although its only the first week, alot of stuff happened..mr azam, teh physics teacher , didnt come for the whole week! wooooo xDD basically alot of free periods..to do other work..lol went to flag day on friday , well was kinda boring in the morning went to the place den kena had to sit there for like er 1 hour? waste of time but well walking around and asking for donations kinda meaningful , but i dun feel easy going around asking ppl for donations..shy..lol..paiseh lor lol..but totally enjoyed the afternoon..had loads of fun walking around..seeing stuff..you know..wif you..but kx there la lol..spoooiiillll lol.. xDD nvm at least beefy went home..lol..i didnt mean to bang seh swee and jovy..but i was initially thinking of going blading wif reed and teh gang..you noe my buddies..but den she asked whether we would like to go walk walk well soo i went..who wouldnt..like duh..lol..like i said live life to the fullest..

i know your troubled by something..you can tell me..be it on msn , call , or sms i'll try to help..its kinda like my nature..i'll help even if something bad happens to me..i dont bang seh friends in need..thats just plain me or just plain jerome..

2006-06-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

o.o many things happened over the past few days..but i didnt bother to type them out..too lazy..thats me..lol firstly on tuesday last week...went blading wif my frens..well i was the only one blading..the others cycling..lol..that day was fun..but nth much to type though..the next interesting thing i did was er..going on the church thingy..met many ppl but forgot their names..lol..too many names to remember la lol..had nth better to do that day..so go wif my cousin lor lol..

i noe i like you..many ppl noe? lol..the only problem is im lost..hard to explain..like love like?

2006-06-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

woooo..went to marina circle , triangle , rectangle, SQUARE! lol complicated xDDD
went there for some pool and bowling babeh..lol fun xDD den noe wat? we went sight seeing!
went to the esplanade last floor see see lol scenery nice..but so high..im afraid of heights! lol
after dat..went to merlion xDD under construction!! xDD funneh lol the pic they put for display..it says that the merlion having a bath.. o.o how long nvr bathe.. lol finally it thinks of the people! and bathes! lol
THE PIC OF THE MERLION xDD

the scenery nice eh?

Dunno wat dis is but it looks cute xDD

i tell you..your happy im happy lol..but ive gotta say..that babu guy..he is damn lucky..hope he treats you well! but remember..im still here!! just say hi to me sometime xDD thats good enough for me *smiles* (:

2006-06-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

"Craig David Unbelievable lyrics"
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have,
and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means

omg lol..im addicted to dis song..dont know why..kinda reflects my life lol..before you came..into my life..its because of you that ive changed..if not i would still be playing and failing all the way to the 'O' levels.. all i have to say..its thank you..very much.. if it werent for you..i would still be playing the whole time and not even doing my work..thanks.

you should really take care of yourself..dont do things that you shouldnt do..its bad for health..ppl will be real sad if you fall sick..esp me lol.

2006-06-11T11:39:00.000+08:00

Ok..im unsure about things..you tell me stuff..maybe wif hidden messages, maybe not. Im probably the blurest person on the earth. Im not too sure about your "hints". I want to ask but..im afraid..you know..the DISC thingy..that was done b4 the hols. Its kinda true..they say that im afraid of rejection..and i truly am. I trust my fren but..i think he only told me part of the truth..he only told me he likes her..but i cant shake the feeling..

(:

2006-06-08T19:55:00.000+08:00

A dream is something that you have when you are sleeping.
A Goal is something that you hope to Achieve.
A Wish is something that you want very much.

My dream is to be chatting happily wif you.
My Goal is to make you happy.
My Wish is for you to be joyful and bubbly no matter where you are.

I am not sure what is going to happen next but i am not a petty person. The thing is that as long as your happy. Im happy. But..a friend of mine told me something that i never did want to hear..but i cant change anything..so why should i try..

I dont like people for their looks..but for their attitudes..if i went for looks, i would have been a flirt..like someone i noe..i like you for who you are..so dont change..

2006-06-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes..i wish that some things were just not true..but the fact is that they are..im afraid of losing you..but theres nothing i can do..the worst part is not losing something..its trying to forget something..the memories..they can kill..but im content..to have those memories..some times its better to let go..i should be sad but at the same time im happy for you..i'll still be around but i know that..know that my prescence..prescence is unfelt..it aint as much as urs and the other dude..but heck..remember when i said that if your happy im happy? i meant it..im changed and you know it..i'll watch from afar making sure that you are safe..and if anything happens just know that i'll do my 110% to help..

just be happy (;

2006-06-06T16:50:00.000+08:00

Well..isnt it strange that me and my sis..though we look alike are in 2 different worlds of our own? Shes the kind that likes to do things beforehand..but me on the other hand does things at the final minute..for me, i'd rather burn midnight oil than give up my enjoyment time..sleep is not a major need of mine..but for her, she would give up her play time so that she can sleep at her usual time. Another weird thing is that she and i are totally opposite, the obvious one is that shes a she and im a he lol..shes the quiet and soft spoken one but i am the noisy and the loud one lol..OH YAR and the worst thing is that shes selfish but i *ahem* don't mind to share things..ask her little thing oso dun wan -_-..but basically shes ok lar..except for the selfish part xD

its not whether its right or wrong..its whether you regret it or you dont..thats the way of life..
its all about you

2006-06-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

If theres a light, theres darkness
If theres love, theres hatred
If theres a friend, theres an enemy
In every heaven, there will be hell

lol..yea in life there are many things that are opposite of each other lol..nobody is made perfect, everybody will like someone and everybody will hate someone, nobody is totally liked, nobody is totally hated. Life isnt unfair. Its kinda balanced. What good things you have, will be balanced with wat bad things you have. Its just how you look at stuff..lol yea im the happy-go-lucky sort so who cares. As long as other ppl are happy, im happy. lol i don't believe in love at first sight. those kind of love is built on infatuations. whats true is that you get to know someone and like everything about that person. Things happen only when you make them happen.

Whats important? Happiness is important..

2006-06-02T12:51:00.000+08:00

i juz love ncc lol..i wish that it wasnt the last year..being in camp..is so fun..yesterday..went to stay in skool wif the ncc cadets for fun lol..though we didnt do much, me , pk and eric had a great time..a once in a lifetime chance..probably the most fun camp i ever had although i only stayed for half a day and 1 nite lol..go there listen to songs and watch shows on laptop lol..me and pk had the most fun..coz we sat there and sang as the songs were playing..kinda enjoyable lol..i made quite a few new records for myself..i slept for only 3 hours and i changed many sleeping places in ONE nite..lol from the stage..to the sofa next to the office and then the carpet at the cultural corner..then to the canteen and finally the foyer..lol
btw i bought the hichew lol

2006-05-31T13:22:00.000+08:00

holy shit? finally the internet on my com works? WOOOOO HOOOO!! TeH DawG is back in da House! I MISSED BEING ONLINE..DID ANYONE MISS ME? lol..doooooota!!
lol..try try..

2006-05-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

Phew..feel much better after the earlier post..i admit..i miss being online..a few more days..of pure torture..and my grief will be over..i guess that most of u guys can call me lucky..i have loads of stuff..2 ps, 1 ps 2 , 1 xbox , 1 com , loads of other stuff u probably wont wanna noe abt..yea but..u have things that i dun have..like a dad? he left like when i was er..in primary school? i dun really care abt that..but the major thorn in my life is my sister..she is very very very very very...very very..irritating..she is probably the most irritating person to ever walk this earth..yea im "evil"..thats wat she would say..but look..i used to be worse..
just do it..at least..before i regret..

2006-05-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

sian..freaking pissed..i guess dis is wat u call retribution? lol..ok ok..i admit dat i used to be real mean to my sis..but..ive changed..but look..this is how she ****in treat me..its been 3 weeks without internet..but the worst part is dat the internet is in my sis com..for me..this internet is the only way i can become.."me" again..yea im addicted to being online..but heck..ask my circle of frens..who can survive a whole week wifout being online..
Hover your mouse over my counter for a message.. p.s its in the starting part..that is if u didnt find out before..

2006-05-07T11:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday..went to bedok corner..near bedok army camp..celebrate mothers day..lol..went to eat at a restaurant.. yea..it was fun..but was boring..needed to play my wc..lol.. guess im still addicted..but at least on weekdays i don't play as much..lol
lol..(:

2006-05-06T12:56:00.000+08:00

o.o?..did i do smth wrong..? im really confused with the shit that is happening in my life..i'll nvr understand..tell me wat i can do..to change..changes take time..all i have to say is..FTW..zzz..
if i did anything wrong..im sorry..

2006-05-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

look into my eyes..and tell me smth i want to noe..lol..mid year exams starts tml..but look at me..im still slacking..doing wat? nothing much..really..just sitting..thinking about many stuff..but i have 1 thing to say..my class..well..they r a bunch of N3R)$..no comments.. lol..not all lar.. but i think in my class..i am one of the most slack..maybe i am.. lol..cant believe dat i got so high for my psle..my science and maths.. both 240..dun believe go to the front of my class check lor..
im happy..but sad..why? i have no idea..the reason.. is you? i think..make sure u study for mid year arh..dun wanna see you fail..see u fail = see u sad = make me sad lol..indirect link..
P.S. blue messages are for my views..
pink is jus for well..some other stuff..for her? lol

2006-05-03T17:16:00.000+08:00

o.o..heres the truth..i swear..that i didnt study for anything..really..but i got 24 and a half upon 30..not bad eh? lol..REALLY I DIDNT STUDY! I SWEAR! CROSS MY HEART AND HOPE TO DIE! lol..*crosses fingers*..didnt mean the die part..lol..well..nothing is impossible..IT CAN BE DONE! learned from my cca *salutes ncc*..gonna miss ncc..
i'll do anything..some things are best left unsaid..

2006-05-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

i love my dog so much..i don't know wat i would do if anything happened to her..today is miko's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKO..lol..dedicated one post to miko.. (:
im still missing you.. ..bye..

2006-05-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

~~F.A~~.M.I.L.Y means ~~Father And~~ Mother I Love You.
lol learnt dat from the movie i just watched..but i changed it to suit my life..i not stupid 2..lol i almost cried..so sad the storyline..i have a incomplete family background..so wat? thats life..all i have to do is make sure it doesnt happen any more..
for some reasons..it has stopped..why? i dont know..

2006-04-30T11:47:00.000+08:00

Im juz sitting here..typing..have no idea how..or why..i feel so weird..yesterdae..went out..dota..the good thing..we had fun..i went late for tuition..lol..what? dats me..ask the ppl at my tuition mates..im always late..lol..the bad thing..kena thrashed by rendy and his frens..well..wat can you expect..his frens = indonesia pros??? lol..at least we survived till lvl 14+?? lol..
losing my will..losing myself..in the void..the void where nobody returns..the void of my mind..trying to live life to its fullest..nvr regret wat happens..enjoy every moment..do wat you want..dun care wat other ppl think..
trying to forget..pls dun remind me..fading away in my memory..

2006-04-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

I refuse to give up
I refuse to give in
You're my everything
I don't wanna give up
I don't wanna give in
...all i need..is half a chance..thinking about you...every second, minute, hour, day...*thinks*...its nvr ur fault...trust me...nvr gonna blame anybody...everything that happens..its my fault..i can nvr win..he's too good...i'll be there..waiting..but for how long? oni time can tell..missing every moment that i had..wif you..

2006-04-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

ever felt like breaking down? ever felt out of place? like somehow u just dun belong..and no one understands you? i have...but somehow ive pulled through...i have no worries...the only worry i have..is to lose you..lol...
for some weird reason...i have no idea why...thinking abt you all the time..but..the pain...its gone...well most of it anywaes...ur the only person that has really made a impact on me...

2006-04-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered...how funny it is...to have a sibling in the same school?
i have...my sis..shes in 2e1...i noe she'll go to 3e1 next year...no need say one...shes smart like me *coughs* lol..confirm one lar..she study so hard..not like me...to her..SSS mus mean study study study..but for me...its slack slack slack...like the lion king...timon and pumba..i learned from them..hakuna matata...it means no worries...peace out...

chill...thats the word...chill...dun think so much...living the "happy-go-lucky" life..im loving it..cant stop thinking abt chew..

2006-04-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

I'll never break your heart

I'll never make you cry

I'd rather die,

then live without you

I'll give you all of me

Honey that's no lie

alwaes thinking...nvr ending...cant stop...the only thing on my mind...its you...

2006-04-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

2dae...in class cme...talk abt fathers...zzz...dont have one..dun noe why...dun really care...its his lost..not mine...he wan bang seh...his prob...now...im trying..my very best..for the exams...but not 100%...maebe oni 50%?...lol...doing it fer my mum..my sis..myself...and fer her...wat else can i say..everything happens for a reason...rite?
im glad...that things happened...if not i wuldnt be able to work as hard..

2006-04-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

Relieved...phew...now lets get back to business...ive found my ignition key...but the problem is...its in the car...and the car is locked...how can i open the door...*thinks*...no time to wait for locksmith...best way out is to break the door...but my car leh...i spoil for wat...how about...taking public transport...need to change many buses...but its worth a shot...

feeling much better...thx...those r some of my most personal things...dun tell any1...u noe wat i mean...(:

2006-04-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

lol miko kena cut hair...now look like wolf...cute lol...nothin much happened over the few days...on fridae it was honours day...march in the morning..den afternoon...went bowling wif mark, rid , sj , ayuni, anna, eric and charmaine.... (:
When i see you happy...it makes me happy...
still feeling depressed...i have no idea why...sometimes happy...sometimes sad...when will this feeling end...its the heart wrenching feeling...very sad...sobs

2006-04-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

12. You'll read his/her SMS over and over again...

11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...

10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her...

9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and faster...

8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.

7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you...you can only see that person...

6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs.

5. He/She becomes all you think about.

4. You'll get high just by their smell...

3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them..

2. You'll do anything for him/her...

1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.

2006-04-22T11:48:00.000+08:00

Confessions of a broken heart...the pain is getting worse...its affecting my mood...missing chew...its only been so short...11 hours and40 mins to be exact...yet the world feels as though it is ending...

2006-04-21T18:31:00.000+08:00

ToRmenT of teh HearT...the heart...it feels like...its being...stabbed...over and over again...many times...the relief of the knife being taken out...and the torture of the knife going in again...
When i look into ur side eyes...it makes me feel for you...coz i dun see the light dat was alwayes shining through...someone broke ur heart...now its easy to give up...im telling u its not the end..its not the end of us...keep believing baby coz every thing happens for a reason...

2006-04-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

Sad...my last pic of me going to my cca...ncc...gonna miss it...
problems are meant to be solved...dun bottle up ur feelings...it ends up disastrous...believe me...i've tried...

2006-04-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

o.O 3 posts in 1 day...lol...feeling really really weird...i have no idea why...the feeling is like being stabbed over and over again...have no idea why im feeling like this...changes happening too fast...stopped my stupid attitude...and now minimising my need to play wc...its working...but it feels damn weird...being confused...its pitch black in here...can you help me...help me find the way out...i can only see u...

Ur the only person dat has managed to change my thinking *thinks*
I don't think dat i will regret changing my life...

2006-04-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

Has anybody ever told you how beautiful you truly are? lol...tml honours dae...gotta go skool damn early...sian...6am o.O...i have no idea...wat i am gonna do...do chew need any help..?

2006-04-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

DawG...finally teh blog be finished...well nothin much happened in skool...juz been feeling quite depressed... sad puppy...lol...chill...girl...chill... :)